tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57444629026285997332011-04-21T15:03:44.484-07:00Kettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11215737878447808496noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5744462902628599733.post-80736672168715281432007-01-04T11:52:00.000-08:002007-01-04T17:38:38.847-08:00I am resuming the effort to write my dissertation, although this project will not be as fruitful, presumably, as my detox project. I am hoping to chart my progress by putting my thoughts out there as they come. Hopefully, i will translate that into a viable dissertation.<br /><br />My initial fear has to do with the general attitude that you don't let anyone know what your thoughts are when you are in academia. to <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">publicly</span> announce your ideas can be tantamount to plagiarizing your own work! Its still old school over there. Nevertheless, i want to know why i am so reluctant to finish this degree. I've been there for seven years and all the talk about people going through what i am going through only helps me procrastinate a little longer. I think I am <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">holding</span> <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">back</span> because I so completely lack the <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">confidence</span> to become a professional. I am so <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">afraid</span> of being seen, i can't manage to finish what I start. Well, this project is my last ditch effort to help <span onclick="BLOG_clickHandler(this)" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">myself</span>.<br /><br />In a weak effort to imitate my own project, i will use the next 21 days to chart my dissertation progress. I will get my hands dirty only to see what is happening to me as i get into complex thinking.<br /><br />At 8:43pm<br /><br />I am still road-blcked. Nothing. I can't even bear to look at my previous work. I usually accomplish very little when I am like this. Let's hope the next couple of hours don't turn me on to Judge Judy and a penchant for apple pie.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5744462902628599733-8073667216871528143?l=seventhyear.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Kettyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11215737878447808496noreply@blogger.com0